I can't face the reality.
I count it a great day when I make it 24 hours without bursting into tears.
It's a good one when it's only once.
Some days I go through ROLLS of toilet paper. Today is one of those days.
William and I look at life so differently. I'm irrational and he's rational. He says, this is me being one step closer to being home... And I think, it's one step closer to him being gone.
He leaves for California tomorrow. He says he will have one week with electronics before its radio silence until the 16th. But with the two hour time difference and everything else I'm betting we barely talk for the next 23 days.
I has been a long time since we have gone that long without talking. And in actuality I'm not sure there has been a time in 10 years that we have gone that long. Even when he was at LDAC we talked a little bit.
So right now, I'm gripped with fear about not talking to him. I know it will only be worse once he's out of the country. He is my rock. He makes me happy. He helps me decide things. I'm very independent but he is still the leader of this family. I need him.
With work on the course it has been on, and Levi moving at the pace he has been, I have no idea how I'm going to make it through the next 27 days.
Some days I wish I moved back to Houston.
2 comments:
Thinking about you and praying for your strength!
If you need anything, I am here! If anything, we can shed tears together. :) These last few days have been some of the roughest, and with this whole 2 week no electronics, not going to hear from them crap, I can only imagine it won't get much easier. Hang in there, we will get through this somehow someway!
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