Pregnancy blues

It's hard to admit... but I definitely have the pregnancy blues.  I've had a completely uneventful pregnancy, so there is no reason for me to feel this way, but I do.

Because I am always so honest on my blog I feel like I should share this part of my pregnancy too.  But it's definitely difficult. I know a lot of it is hormones, but it doesn't make it any easier to deal with.

Every human relationship I have right now feels off. I kind of just want to crawl into a hole and hide for the next 6 months.  I feel like if I continue in this state, soon no one will want to be around me.  It doesn't just affect my personality, but also my passion for things I used to love... like my job.  Right now my job is a chore.  I really do love it, but this year I have had to force myself to show up every single day. It shouldn't be that way.

What baffles me the most is that no matter how much I try to be excited for the baby... I'm not. I can "verbalize" that I'm happy and talk about my pregnancy.  But on the inside it's just not how I thought I would feel.

15 Weeks

Well... I'm so glad to say good bye to the first trimester.  And not because I didn't have a good one but just because it means we are closer to meeting our little baby.

I've been feeling pretty good... but I think I should knock on some wood because tonight I definitely feel strange.

I think maybe I felt the baby tonight.  Not sure... maybe I'll feel it again soon!

I think we are nearing a decision on boys names.  We have had lots of arguments but hopefully we are finally getting to some common ground.

Bump: It's there.

Anyways... It's 9:40 and way way past my bed time.  No I'm serious!

Dr. Appointment

I went to the OB with my mom yesterday.  It was an anticlimactic appointment.  It lasted about 10 minutes. He just listened to the heartbeat and that was pretty much it.  Maybe I should have done the optional NT scan so we could have seen the baby another time before October... Oh well.

So out next appointments are set for Sept 30 and October 3rd.  I will have a regular OB check up on Sept 30 and then we will go for an in depth ultrasound and gender check on the 3rd.

Stay tuned!!

I'm still on Team Pink and William is still on Team Blue.  But I have this strange feeling that I'm gonna be wrong.  It's probably because I bought a dress a few weeks ago.

Off to go shopping! Bought some baby things last night! More to come!

13 weeks

I'm sorry I've been so delinquent in blogging.

Life caught up with me and I've been oh, so tired.

I suddenly feel even less pregnant than I had been feeling.  Nothing much has changed other than I can definitely feel myself "growing".

Bump watch:
There is beginning to be a bump.  The consensus is that when I'm wearing a dress it's noticeable and when I'm wearing jeans/shorts it's not. I have a bump picture and I'll upload it soon.

The baby:
The baby is 3 inches long and the size of a medium shrimp.  It weighs almost an ounce. If the baby is a girl there is now more than 2 million eggs in its ovaries.

Symptoms:
Cramps are gone... still have a sort of blah feeling about food in general.  I've been fairly tired... but all teachers are this time of year.  My chest doesn't hurt nearly as bad anymore.

Next appointment is on FRIDAY! My mom is going with me since William is out of town! Yay!

Names:
Madelynn Anne
Boy name is still undecided....

This weekend my mom and I are going to pick out baby furniture! So exciting!

Heartbeat at 11 weeks

This is a video that William took of our little baby's heartbeat.  It's just of the monitor because the baby is still located a little too low for public view.  We bought a home fetal heart monitor for $50 and it has provided me with a lot of piece of mind.  It's a little difficult to pin down our little squirming caterpillar right now, but soon it will be a breeze to listen to it whenever we want! 

So sorry about the mess with merging my blogs.  The merge caused me not to be able to post anything for a day and also sent a lot of emails! Yikes. 

I'll be back with a full 11 week update in a little while.