Pregnancy blues

It's hard to admit... but I definitely have the pregnancy blues.  I've had a completely uneventful pregnancy, so there is no reason for me to feel this way, but I do.

Because I am always so honest on my blog I feel like I should share this part of my pregnancy too.  But it's definitely difficult. I know a lot of it is hormones, but it doesn't make it any easier to deal with.

Every human relationship I have right now feels off. I kind of just want to crawl into a hole and hide for the next 6 months.  I feel like if I continue in this state, soon no one will want to be around me.  It doesn't just affect my personality, but also my passion for things I used to love... like my job.  Right now my job is a chore.  I really do love it, but this year I have had to force myself to show up every single day. It shouldn't be that way.

What baffles me the most is that no matter how much I try to be excited for the baby... I'm not. I can "verbalize" that I'm happy and talk about my pregnancy.  But on the inside it's just not how I thought I would feel.